I’ve been praying about what to write but the Lord was silent. It was not until yesterday during my fast when I was reading Psalm 51, that the Lord slapped me in the face with verse 13 and I started to meditate.
Many times we get saddened by our struggles but “every ting ‘appen fi a reason” (everything happens for a reason), and the obstacles and tests we face are no different. I’ve sung the chorus “create in me a clean heart” so many times and quite frankly the real meaning was never revealed to me. Likewise, I’ve never seen the passage like I do now. Psalm 51 was written by David after he had committed adultery with Bathsheba. So David sinned against the Lord and he confessed and lamented his sins in verses 1-6:
Psalm 51:1 “Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of thy tender mercies blot out my transgressions. 2. Wash me throughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3. For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. 4. Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. 5. Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me. 6. Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom.”
He pleaded for pardon and was renewed in verses 7-12:
Psalm 51:7. Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8. Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice. 9. Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. 10. Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. 11. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. 12. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.”
And in verses 13-15 where I stopped, we see the intent to win souls that are perplexed by what he had encountered,through his testimony.
Psalm 51:13. “Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee. 14. Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. 15. O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise.”
Think about it, if I have never experienced something, I would not be equipped to write about it so that another can be helped. The great book in James 1:2-4 says “My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.” What am I saying? There is purpose in your trials! Maybe it is to remind you that you’re still mortal and thus need God (John 15:5). It could be that the Lord wants to bring your attention to that weakness you’ve been ignoring. It is likely that it’s your preparation for ministry; your process. Whatever it is, when you’re through, according to the word, you will be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. The Lord will not give you a ministry to reach broken women if you’ve never been broken, nor can you testify if you’ve never been tested.
In verse 13, after he had repented and had been restored, the bible says David said “Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.” His obstacle was sexual immorality and because he had gone through that, he can minister to others who are struggling with the same, that they may also be saved, that the Lord can also restore to them the joy of His salvation (vs 12).
Let me say again that there is purpose in your test! Be ye reminded that we live not for ourselves, but we live to serve God and others (1 Pet 4:10). We must be refined so that we might be made ready (Isaiah 48:10). Don’t be cast down about your struggle, it is for a greater good! It is not the will of God that we should perish (2 Pet 3:9), and that is why for any temptation we may face He has already provided a way of escape (1 Cor 10:13). Through this we will be able to testify of His goodness (Ps 51:14-15) and ourselves and others will be able to overcome (Rev 12:11).
Hebrews 2:18 declares “Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.” We have no ministry without our experiences and that includes not only our victories but our failures.
Regards, Tamalcia J.